hey, wanna still have me a as a friend and keep up with the jones-es?


franzfergidon 

necesito hablar en español. es necesario. :/
pero, no sé, tengo miedo porque yo sé que mi gramática es muy mala. jaja... y... no sé muchas palabras que puedo usar a hablar. huh.

Más temprano, yo estaba llorando... porque estoy estupida a veces. Y... lloré tanto que quería vomitar. Bleh... pero yo no necesité. TENGO LA SUERTE? (Yeah YAY, no me gusta... vomitando. o vómito... en general XD) Pero, creo que lloré tanto porque estoy triste (duh...) pero no sé, estoy triste para las cosas que no son importante. Hay personas que no conozco... bien o a todos, y los dejo (err... tratando a decir que "i let them") y sus opiniones me hacen triste y enojada. Pero... ya sabes eso... err bien si ha leido mi último post. jajaja

Y... Sabes que yo no supe cómo usar la palabra "haber" porque yo nunca aprendía... porque en mi clase de español III... nos nunca hice nada... y ahorita yo sé que estoy patadas a mí mismo (kicking myself?) porque en español IV, tuvo muchos problemas con gramática y escribiendo y hablando... grr, pero si no tuvo está clase de español, yo nunca conocería mi mejor amiga (!!!!) Y... err, pues creo que estoy feliz porque si no tuvo esa clase, sería más triste que estoy? (This is kinda confusing me... to write that...)

Bueno...

Y pues, me gusta la lluvia, porque la necesitamos...
Espero que esté usando 'la' correctamente. Meh.

Aye, pues, la practica hace la perfección... sí?

Hoy es el día de dedicación a Babyshambles.. y creo que fue la idea de Ana (lo siento, pero tu nombre no puede tener dos n's!! xD), y dije que participaría. Pero, eh... no me gusta Babyshambles como el año pasado, porque estaba enamorada de Pete Doherty! Y ahora... no sé... por qué lo amé mucho. Creo que estaba una loca, jeje... err, bien pero, para todos de mí obsesiones... estaba una loca por alguien en... cualquiera obsesión yo tenía. (Como... Paul McCartney, Jim Morrison, Keith Moon, Freddie Mercury, Richard O'Brien, Joe Strummer, Mick Jones...) Yo sé que yo estoy una chica muy triste, rofl. jajaja.

Okay, necesito ducharme ahora. Creo que la lluvia ha dejado...

Anoche, yo miré There Will Be Blood (una pelicula con Daniel Day Lewis sobre petróleo) por la televisión... y hoy, estaria miro la de nuevo! Porque... me gusta mucho, creo que la pelicula fue muy bueno y que Lewis ameritó el Oscar para Best Actor... (no sé si "ameritar" es la palabra correcta :/)

Luego, voy a escribir más...

pues, mí vida es muy aburrida ahora...
aún necesito ayudar a limpiar mí casa pero no quiero... porque tengo un dolor de cabeza, estomago y piernas. so... estoy escribiendo por livejournal, porque no actualicé por... dos meses.

ayer, yo fui a la 'baby shower' para vanesa... porque ella está embarazada hoy... y ella está debe para 29 de julio... (solo 3 días después de mío x3). y entonces, nada. yo fue con ella y su familia a su casa, pero... no sé, cuando estoy con ellos... son muy diferente que mí familia... me siento como una parte de su familia, pero con mí familia no es lo mismo...

meh, yo sé que mi español es muy malo... pero necesito practicar so, espero que pueda comprender...


la practica hace la perfección, ¿verdad?

i cannot explain happiness.

I realize I don't update like I should... I don't know what I want to say...

But,

HAPPY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!

pictures from halloween. late i know, but still. i haven't had a lot of time lately.
( halloween pictures here )

anyway. i am so excited to be almost done with american govt. :) i'm finishing that class today. :D
i'll post a true journal later cos it'll be friends locked...

school is fuckin exhausting :(

Took the SAT today. THAT WAS TERRIBLY EXCITING. BEST THREE HOURS AND FORTY FIVE MINUTES EVER.
God. It was horrible. Stupid songs I don't like kept getting stuck in my head, so I was forced to lose some concentration to get DPT or The Strokes in my head. It was... crazy.
Plus, I had a really strange dream involving two of my friends last night. And they're both younger than me. Why do I have to be hanging out with juniors my senior year? Haha. It's weird. 
But like, I can't hang out with Tina and Chelsea and Becky much anymore. They're like... all... supa-anime, like I'm sure they've always been but now they're like, tighter. And I'm like, no, I don't like anime. Cos like, I never really have.

So instead, I was talking with my friend before we took the test. I told her I wanted to be crackwhore skinny... I'm afraid people are gonna start worrying about me. But... I want to be really skinny. That's the thing. But... yeah, I'm not. So. THAT SUCKS.
Whatever, life goes on, and I'll work on that.

This week has been like... kinda hectic. I guess? I can't remember what went on most of the days... I know Wednesday I had a test on The Prince. That was... kind of... annoying. Machiavelli is pretty odd. But I mean, yeah. And then Thursday and Friday I had a test on Heart of Darkness in AP Lit. I'm honestly feeling really confident about that test. I wish I could feel the same way about Spanish. :( I'm doing really bad in that class. I think I have a low C. But, I'm not, THAT worried about it. So long as my average final grade when I finish this year is a B, I think I will be okay.

Sigh so, like the next thing we read in AP Lit is 1984. The next thing I need to read for AP Euro is Candide.
I FEEL LIKE THIS YEAR I GET TO READ CLASSIC BOOKS.

I mean last school year, I had to read The Great Gatsby (I loved it, ended up having a dream where I was in love with F. Scott Fitzgerald once, it was kind of awkward.)... and The Catcher in the Rye, which I read like, two years before. I love Holden Caulfield. Aww. He's just so... yeah.

I keep biting my fingernails.
I've got a problem, and I can't sort it out.

And I think I need to be a bigger Oasis fan than I am. So I'm listening to What's The Story Morning Glory. Yup. Probably one of my favourite albums.

Please, someone tell me that they agree.
Hum, I need Franz Ferdinand OR somatt... icons. Damn. I listen to them to much for them not to have one.
Oh, and I do need a Strokes one too... I just... can't find where to get good ones. -thinks-

I should leave for school soon.
I'LL WRITE A POST WORTH READING SOMETIME...

I think I did a LOT today.
I:
-got work done for a research paper
-walked around at a college I don't particularly like, AND got asked if I knew where "Parking Garage A" was. (I politely told them as I was listening to Kasabian's Club Foot: "I don't go to school here.")
-bought both Franz Ferdinand albums (:DDDD), FOR LESS THAN 15 DOLLARS. SRSLY. ONE WAS $4.99, THE OTHER WAS $7.99.
-bought The Prince (not because i wanted to, cos i had to XD)
-got sunglasses like Carl's (oh yeah, me? so obsessed. totes. -rolls eyes- okay, maybe a little)
-went to Park Ave CDs, bought the Virgins album.
( -MET THE VIRGINS )(Although in that picture, I look idiotic.)
-Got asked if I could get registered to vote ("I can't, I'm 17.")
-Met some Virgins-Stalkers/Fanboys (;D They were nice though. "We came all the way from Miami, we want to get our money's worth.")
-Took pictures with my cousin, and she's taller than me :( And younger. We were sitting listening to my iPod, I had her listen to Digsy's Dinner, and it's not just me who thinks Liam says lasagna funny. That makes me feel better.

This is ridiculous.

( omgwtflolbbqzomgguh )

And I found a rosary. So I'm wearing it now.
And wtf, I've had a bunch of dreams lately involving Peter Doherty.
Weird... Like, just really weird.
One I was looking through a magazine and there was something about him (kinda lame...), one I got into trouble (cos I was driving a car, without a seatbelt, and I didn't have a license... and I made too wide of a turn and I dropped off the highway. SRSLY. It was scary.) and somehow... he was able to convince the people that I didn't need to be there. (That was is lol-worthy. I couldn't EVER see that happening in real life.) And then he told me I owed him. Faaair ;D And I think I had one last night, I just can't remember what.

See, a friend that I met near the beginning of like... March this year... sent me a message on Myspace yesterday saying "You dyed your hair!" Only less literate. I was like, "Yes I did." So that called for her response "That's crazy. You looked better as a blonde." (Again only less literate).

Personally, I wouldn't've minded if she said, "I liked you better as a blonde." Because that's opinion, but because she made that statement... I don't know what to think and it's been bugging me since then. Gah.

EDIT: I also had a dream last night, where I was singing I Wish by Babyshambles and there was someone with headphones and all of a sudden, I took the headphones off the person and it was I Wish. HA. Stupid dreams.

BUT WHO?
I have no clue...

So today was barely productive. I really should go to bed.
But, I recorded a really lo-fi version of UnBiloTitled with just my guitar. And myself, singing.
People seem to like it?
But, I don't know if any of you guys have heard it, so I'm gonna post the link here, maybe you can check it out
Cos I would like, really appreciate it? www.sendspace.com/file/fsfmre
Haha... OH.
Last.fm randomly loved Hard To Be You (Song For Carl)... by the Charlatans. I don't know if I should be worried, cos I have only listened to it once. And like, if it starts knowing that I love Carl, isn't that a bit odd? HAHA.

I'm doing community service tomorrow. Actually, in like 8 hours. I should go sleep.
But I don't really want to.

I came up with it in a few minutes..

Cuando yo voy a ver en mi espejo
Puedo ver cosas que no me gustan
Mi cara, mis ojos, mi pelo rojo
¿Qué puedo gustar?
Nada, y creo que si necesito cambiar
Todos.

I'll translate if you wish.

Listening to Oasis. Seriously. Can't stop. I've been listening to them almost exclusively since Friday night when Morning Glory came up on my iTunes. I don't know if this is bad. I just, yeah... just can't stop. I listened to (What's The Story) Morning Glory? all this morning before school. It was really good. I really liked it, etc...

Yeah, since school has started, I've had two days off. It's ridiculous. Thanks Tropical Storm Fay. And maybe Hurricane Gustav now? :/ I don't know if I want another one. I hope it misses us, honestly. I just want to do my senior year in highschool, no interruptions. Speaking of which, I didn't tell you guys my schedule, did I?
Anyway, my day at school goes like this:
AP Literature with Eskin
Spanish IV with Louis-Charles
Chorus with Linfors/Rode
Anatomy & Physiology with Demarse (I realised this class is going to be the boring out of most of my classes. I sat drawing in it today. I drew Pete Doherty. COS I'M STUPID THAT WAY. I tried to do Carl too, but like, I didn't finish it, so I'll just take a picture of the drawing of Pete I did, cos it kind...of looks okay? Silly cartoons.)
B-Lunch. I see a bunch of people there. And I see Gordon too, laaaaaaaaaaaawlz.... I used to have a crush on him. I hope he knows I don't like him anymore. XD
AP European History with Phillips. Haha. There's FIVE OF US IN THIS CLASS. IT'S GREAT. xD
Student Assistant for Owens. I want to see if I can get my schedule changed and be a student assistant all year. I hope so...
Cos, I know like, at least three kids in her 6th period, aw...

Anyway...


P.S. I just tried some Jack Daniel's. Not even enough to fill up the very bottom of the cap. EW. Tasted like bananas and antiseptic. Gross.
I still only like Smirnoff Ice.

Here's how it goes:
Step 1. Put your playlist on random.
Step 2. Post the first line from the first 25 songs that play, providing there's some bloody chance of anyone guessing them.
Step 3. Strike out the songs when someone guesses correctly.

Don't use google. You'll make me cry.


So I was really selective with stuff cos I kept getting the same bands. Plus, stuff I wasn't sure of, didn't think anyone else knew, etc etc...

Just too tired. Meh. I went to bed around 1:30 AM, cos I'm trying to get to sleep earlier so I can sleep better... but it didn't help. My mom woke me up before she left at 6. And then both of my dogs kept barking so I couldn't sleep. So I read some more of Falling Man. And I absolutely hate it. I think it's the worst book I've ever, ever read. Hate it. Oh well.
My dad is in the hospital now, two nights ago he called at exactly 12:59 AM. I remember cos I looked at the clock on the computer and was like "WTF?" and I was about to listen to Primal Scream's Some Velvet Morning. So weird. But, yeah. He's in the hospital, something about his heart. I don't really know much about it. He said that they lost his shoes. Which isn't that good.
I've been downloading too much stuff lately. I guess cos it's getting so close to go back to school, I know I won't have time to download a bunch of stuff like I have been, so I downloaded No Wow by The Kills, Gemstones by Adam Green, Dirty Pretty Things B-sides (I don't know how I found it, I'd been looking for it for like two months and I finally came across it...), some rare/b-sides by Amy Winehouse, and that scrapped album by Joe Lean & The Jing Jang Jong. I just love that name. Where the hell...
I think it's a pretty amazing name. And then I realised, I had a picture that says their name on it on my wall. It's this little uhmm... advertisement I found in the back of MOJO magazine, advertising Babyshambles and it was saying Joe Lean & The Jing Jang Jong were opening for them. Interesting stuff.
Gaaaahd, I wish I wasn't so tired.